I'm choking you, I know I am even when you say I'm not. I just can't help it. You all say I can't depend on someone, that I can't put someone else over me like I do. You're the most important people in my life, in my world. The thing is, if something happens to you, I won't be able to live with myself. And it will be even worse if I don't do everything I can and everything I can't to stop you from suffering. I just need you alive, because, if you're not alive, I'm not alive. If you die, I die. I need to know you're ok. I need to do everything possible to avoid every harmful situation happening to you. I need you to be happy, I don't care who with, if it's not me, well... it's okay. I know someday you'll find someone who loves you, and cares about you, I'm not saying it will be me, I'm just saying that someone will change your life, rock your world, and I'll try to smile and be happy for  you... somehow I will, it won't be easy, but I will. And on the day of your wedding, I'll be standing there, smiling, supporting you, because you're happy. So, whatever happens, please, don't care about me, if I'm sad or struggling or suffering, I just need to know you're okay to be okay.