20/10/13

I'm standing on a frozen river. 
I'm surrounded by green tall trees. 
Spring is waving hello a few miles away. 
I see her in the top of that mountain. 
She's not looking at me. 
She can't see me. 
I scream my love away. 
I cry me thoughts away. 
You still don't see me. 
So I close my eyes. 
Take a really deep breath, 
And scream I love you. 
But you are not there anymore. 
And I'm not there anymore. 
I'm not there anymore. 
I'm not there. 
I'm not.


8/10/13

Now we are in the ring. And you won't get hurt. I keep feeling this punches. Your punches. You'll keep punching me cause you don't know it's me on the other side. I'm harmless. I won't hurt you. I can't hurt you. I won't close my eyes. I must keep looking at you. Cause the second i close them is the second you fall. And you can't fall. Even if that means it's me who's going down. You are a vampire. You are thirsty for my blood. Keep punching. I don't care. It doesn't matter. Maybe cause I think you'll eventually have to stop. Cause if you don't, and I fall, I'm taking you with me. I'm trying hard not to. But i can't help it. I must go down on my own. So I take a step aside and I see your shocking face when you realize you just punched the air. And you finally open your eyes. And see me. I thought that would've stop you. It doesn't. I turn around. I'm on my way out of this ring. But some invisible wall hits me. I can't get out. And that's when I realize it's neither me nor you. So I raise my fist. And send it to the air in front of me. 
Everything's fine cause you are in the eye of the hurricane. 
It's so calm, so quiet. 
You want out. 
You have to choose. 
Extreme Calm. Or extreme mess. 
You can't balance them. 
It's in or out.
Now or never.
Would you take that risk? Knowing that someday you may finally make it out of the storm, but also understanding that there's a chance you never get out of it? 
Would you die trying?
Are you ready? 
You have to jump. 
A leap of faith. 
What are you gonna do?

2/10/13

Deje de vivir por vos. 
Aún así, nunca fue cuatro de noviembre cuando estabas conmigo. 
Deje de respirar por vos. 
Aún así, nunca te desarmaste por mi. 
Deje de sentir por vos. 
Aún así, nunca dejaron de despintarse tus acuarelas. 
Deje de caminar por vos.
Aún así, corriste sola. 
Deje correr el tiempo por vos. 
Aún así, no fue suficiente. 
Nunca lo fue. 
"Donde existe un sentimiento que no es correspondido - respondió Hodge -, existe un desequilibrio de poder. Es un desequilibrio que es fácil de aprovechar, pero no es un modo de actuar sensato. Donde hay amor, también hay menudo odio. Pueden existir el uno al lado del otro."
You said "I love you", then you took it back. 
You didn't just took your words,
You took my soul and heart too. 
I hope you are taking good care of them. If they were dead, I don't know what I'd do. I'd probably die. I don't know. My head won't stop spinning and I can't think clearly. Possibly because my thoughts aren't there anymore. You took them too. With my heart, my soul... But you still left me. 

Story of my life

Once upon a time there was a girl in love. Her loved one died on a car accident. She felt like her legs had been cut off. Then a new girl appeared in her life. Se started re-building her legs all over again, as well as her heart and mind. Why did she do that? Did she fix her to be the only one who could break her?

12/9/13

What if


I never saw you coming. 
But what is worst, 
I never saw you leaving. 
Suddenly you weren't here anymore. 
Suddenly the world was falling apart. 
You were the only one who was supposed to never hurt me. 
And you were the one who hurt me the most. 
I've never been this weak before. 
And it's all your fault. 
And what if you never come back?
What if it never gets better?
What if it never gets easier?
I'm supposed to just miss you?
That's it?
I just have to cry and miss you every night until it goes away?
What if it never goes away?
What if your picture never fades?
What if I'm forever stuck with your face in my mind?
What if I'm stuck with this me for the rest of my life?

By C. 
On the first page of our story the future seemed so bright. Then this thing turned out so evil. Don't know why I'm still surprised. Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes. But you'll always be my hero even though you've lost your mind. 


28/7/13

I hear lots of people saying they love me... Why is it that the only "I love you" I remember is the one she told me before she left me? 


27/7/13

I know you are confused.
It's yourself you got to loose. 
Don't think about me,
Don't worry about me. 
I'm standing still. 
Cause you need me to.
Take care of yourself. 
As well as I would do.
Even though I can't right now,
I'm always here with you.
You need your time,
You need your space. 
And I'll give it to you 
As long as you like. 
Cause I love you and that's all that matters. 
You are breathing for me,
Keeping me alive,
So please, take care of yourself
As well as I would do. 
I was so close. I almost had it. 
I could have died by your side. But destiny is a tricky game. Illusions are just that. And I miss you. And I want to die. I don't care if its alone this time. I just want to die. 
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.  Should I just stand there and watch you while you drink my sun? Should I leave you sucking the life out of me? 

I hear lots of people saying they love me... Why is it that the only "I love you" I remember is the one she told me before she left me? 

7/7/13

I'm actually really hurt. I don't know what I should feel. I don't know if I miss her, hate her, love her or what. It's like all of these feelings coexisting together inside my head and its slowly and painfully killing me. 

1/7/13

It happened all of sudden. She suddenly lost it. Her mind was leaving her body. Her scars were fading away. She wasn't healing. That was not possible. She was dying. She suddenly lost control. 

12/6/13

Hammers and strings

http://youtu.be/HMrd5ikoaIs
I'm losing her, and all I wanna do is call my friend and talk about it. I can't.

31/5/13

Ruined

Can't stop thinking I love her. 
Can't stop thinking she loves me. 
At least that's what she told me. 
What if she's confused?
What if she's not sure?
I'm so afraid of ruining everything. 
I'm so afraid of getting hurt again. 
I think I'll eventually will. 
I always do. 
I'll ruin everything just because I have to. 
I don't want to. 
I'll hurt her. I'm not good enough. 
She doesn't deserves me. 
She'll find out eventually. 
She will hate me. 
She probably doesn't loves me. 
She'll figure it out soon.
And everything will be ruined. 

Its too quiet in here. 
That darkness is near. 
Make it disappear.
I walk on my own. 
I need you to help me move on. 
But i realize that you're gone. 
The roof is burning, 
You are tearing down. 
You chose the right time. 
Im stuck in here, i cant go out. 
I dont wanna go out. 
I like it here. 
I like the feeling. 
Its burning here. 
And i wanna disappear. 

16/5/13

Freak Out

It's freaking me out. It's the way you walk by and don't even look at me. The way everything seems so easy for you. I'm afraid. I'm scared. It's me who's scaring me. It's some kind of madness, it's taking over my head and body. I can't control it. Blood is coming out of my eyes and ears. I just keep walking.
It's funny, your excuse is always that you couldn't find me.  How is it that you couldn't find me if I leave a river of blood everywhere I walk through? Just follow the river. Go with the flow. Maybe you'll find me. Maybe the day you realize what you were supposed to look for, you find myself lying six feet under ground. In a wooden box. Or maybe you don't find me and we just weren't meant for each other. If that's it, just tell me. Stop lying. It makes me mad. And I'm scared of myself when I'm mad. What can I do when I act out of reason? 
I've beaten my own record without even trying. 
Fifty one cuts in two days. 

26/4/13

Just breathe, its only life.

How things can suddenly come to an end? How come we don't even see it coming? Are there any signs that we are supposed to see? Are we supposed to learn from this? How can we learn when everything's so broken? How can we think clearly when our world is being crashed? This giant monster is beating us, and is really strong. He can kill us. He decides. It's not our call. It's not our choice. We can't step a side to see things in a different way. We are being nailed to the ground, everything hurts. Our chest is about to explode, while our ribs are stuck in our lungs not allowing us to breathe. And then I say: just breathe, it's only life.

21/4/13

Fight for your rights

They'll try to take you down.
They'll try to step on you.
They'll tell you they want the best for you.
They'll say they're helping you.
Don't believe them.
They want to tear you down.
They'll freeze you,
And then throw you from the highest building.
They'll love when they see you crash into a million little pieces.
They'll bath in your tears.
Be careful, beat them before they beat you,
Cause then there's no turning back.

13/1/13

La teoría

Tengo la teoría de que cada uno es el centro de su propio mundo - es más un hecho que una teoría - porque todo en tu vida gira a tu alrededor, y en toda escena de tu vida estás vos. El amor en esto se aplica cuando tu vida y tu mundo - vos - subsisten gracias a una persona. Por más que todos digan que está mal, el amor es una forma de dependencia. El problema está en que la gente ve la dependencia como algo negativo... todos dependemos de algo, de alguien. Nadie subsiste por sí mismo, todos necesitamos a alguien que esté ahí para nosotros, todos necesitamos sentirnos queridos. Todos dependemos. Es una linda dependencia, significa que a pesar de todo, no somos enteramente egoístas. Que daríamos todo por una persona, por lo que interpretamos como nuestro complemento.
Es loco, todo lo reemplazable en el ser humano es par... los pulmones, los riñones... y si no es par no necesita reemplazo si falla, sólamente necesita una parte de otro, como en el caso del hígado. Aún así, el corazón, el cerebro y el estómago son uno solo. Sí, el cerebro tiene dos partes, pero son opuestas, son distintas. Nuestros pulmones son iguales, funcionan para lo mismo. El corazón, el cerebro y el estómago son los lugares por los que manifestamos. Cuando estamos mal tenemos palpitaciones, nos duele la cabeza, la comida nos cae mal... Necesitamos ese otro cerebro, ese otro estómago, ese otro corazón para sobrevivir.
Necesitamos ese complemento que está en otros. Necesitamos completarnos.
Somos personas, eso significa envase y alma, espíritu o la forma en que queramos llamarlo. Chocamos con las personas más parecidas a nosotros, odiamos en otros lo que usualmente nos molesta en nosotros, y muchas veces ni siquiera lo sabemos. Necesitamos lo que nos falta en nuestro ser, y en nuestro cuerpo. Necesitamos algo que nos haga sentir. Si no sentimos, estamos vacíos. Nos encanta sufrir, no lo admitimos, pero nos encanta. Cuando sufrimos es porque algo vale la pena, sino, ni nos importaría. Somos egoístas, sentimos para darnos importancia.
Vivimos nustras vidas buscando esa otra parte que nos haga sentir llenos, completos. Cuando la encontramos, nos demostramos a nosotros mismos que estamos vivos por una razón, estamos vivos para ser felices y hacer a otros felices. Estamos vivos para completar.